People always end up the way they started out. No one ever changes. They think they do but they don't. If you're the depressed type now that's the way you'll always be. If you're the mindless happy type now, that's the way you'll be when you grow up. You might lose some weight, your face may clear up, get a body tan, breast enlargement, a sex change, it makes no difference.

Essentially,

Sometimes I feel like I'm not solid.

I'm hollow.

There is nothing behind my eyes. I'm negative of a person

All I want is blackness, blackness and silence

"This creation is the result of a long period of time being hospitalized under the Swedish law called "LPT". I had no freedom at all and the only thing present